rebel

2009-07-05T00:12:00.000-07:00

relink dudes!

http://screwyou-andyou.blogspot.com

sorry bout changing of urls.
cant help it.
bye. :D

2009-07-03T01:11:00.000-07:00

im gonna change blog again soon. you wait!

2009-06-30T01:34:00.000-07:00

there's this fat bitch and her guy whom i met at ssc mac today and yesterday.

such a whore.
dude. fat arms and sleevesless dress dont go tgt.
god..
and i admit i was laughing the whole time yesterday.
at them.
both hideous and
PDA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
nightmare larh!

den the bitch complained to her bf.
and she told him to go beat our only guy friend at our table.
like huh?
me weiying khialynn n bharatth was there.
so we were like ..... lets wait n see wad happens.
den the guy stood up.
and walked away.

but the fatt whore slut face walked to bharatth and said
in an act cute voice
"hey,if wan fight come shuqun find my -boyfriend's name-! my boyfriend is a fighter!"

stunned. cos i didnt get what she meant.
den weiying told me wad she was really saying and i was like huh?fighter?
thick skin shiat.
i said''eh fat derh don come here nothing den roll here roll there larh'but she left.
maybe she knew all along we were laughing at how fat she is.
and she tot that since we speak angmoh the whole time we must be nerds who dono anybody who can fight.
well bharatth can fight wad.
and even if he cant, the guy so small and skinny, one flick of a finger and he's down man.
plus ah bi is from shuqun lah.
zzzzz.
and he always shows me his muscular body... he can easily win him..
i shall skip jacky.

ya.and so... i was still pissed by her arrogant and boastful words that i went to try my luck today by going back to ssc mac to see if she's still there.
and they were there!
pda-ing again.
amazing.
there's such thing called hotel dude.
im good~;D

well. i toook a pic of them secretly.
but i don have it.
uu'll see them in facebook one day.
but only backview.

urgh i hate fat bitches

2009-06-30T01:22:00.000-07:00

michael is dead.

i know im late.
and soon. im going to close down this blog. and wait for a long time before i start a new one.

just kidding.

im bored.
uu stink..
im good~
;D

physco.
D;

2009-06-22T00:25:00.000-07:00

you know something?
i wanna go home.
i really wanna go home.
i wanna cry to my pillows and make them all wet.
i want to cover myself up in my blanket and pretend im being protected.
drink a hot cup of milo and hope that i will feel better.
watch my favourite spongebob and desperate housewives and den crave for more.
if only my life is simple like a baby's.

complicated.
too complicated.
i've tot of writing a song.
of everybody around me.
but im not successful.
but maybe if i tell jj lin about my life
he could write a song for me.
and if i tell taylor swift, she could create a country pop one.
and then i can sing those songs to people i know. tell them how i feel
but they will think that its a song.

these few posts have been very emo.
i think i haven really emo since sec2. or the worst emo-times, sec1.
now im back again. rhinking of all these things that happened in the 2 and a half years of my secondary sku life.
im scared.
im afraid that one day.
i will lose everything i have.

i want to start my life all over again.
i want to start my life all over again.
i know i wont regret.
i can lose those ppl i now know.
i think i wont be sad.
i just wanna set my life straight.
i just want it to be on the right track.
i don wan thgs to be so screwed anymore.
i wanna learn my lesson.
turn over a BAD leaf.
to become a new leaf.

i should forget how many times i wanted to kill myself.
bay said he will kill me if i say i wanna jump.

2009-06-22T00:05:00.000-07:00

i tried.
i calmed myself down.
but it didnt happen.
i told you,
i tried.

i was crying when i was talking about you.
the reason behind it: unknown
i got so upset losing you.
and then he told me something.
well the second time i heard or saw or found out such things
i can oso say that im sort of used to it.
not.
to have that kind of feeling.
i dont think everyone had it before.
to let someone you trusted do such a thing to you.
that someone can be someone who is not nessesary a family member.
that someone could be a
FRIEND.

well. so-called now.
its hard to see it.
you will break down.
but i didnt.
guess i wasnt so much into you.
as in i dont treat you like a friend like before
like when we were younger
i think i hate you and i think its more then i ever hated you.

you know what it feels like???????!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YOU KNOW HOW IT FEELS LIKE???????!!!!??!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!?

ITS LIKE IM FUCKING NOT INVITED TO BIRTHDAY PARTY OF MY KINDERGARTEN FRIEND.AND IM NOT GIVEN ANY CAKE OR SWEETS OR GOODIE BAGS OR COLOURFUL BALLOONS! AND AFTER THE PARTY YOU GUYS BRING THE INVITATION CARDS TO SCHOOL AND SHW IT TO ME. AND THEN REALISING THAT YOU DIDNT INVITE ME. BUT IT DOESNT MATTER. COS YOU DIDNT INVITE ME ON PURPOSE. YOU WANTED TO SHOW ME HOW MUCH IM NOT WANTED.HOW MUCH YOU GUYS DIDNT LIKE ME. I COULD JUST WALK UP TO YOU AND PLUCK YOUR HAIR OUT AND PULL YOUR EYEBALLS OUT FROM THE SOCKET AND TIE YOU TO THE FLAGPOLE AND ASK SOME BANGLAHS TO RAPE YOU. I WOULD DO IT. COS I CANNOT STAND IT.
ITS WORSE. THAN BETRAYAL.
ITS LIKE GETTING BIRD FLU SWINE FLU H1N1 DENGUE FEVER AND SARS AT ONE GO.

do you get it?
no.
why is it that my life is always having weird things happening.
why is it that the invitation cards will never have my name.
i cry alot when i talked about you.
the tears flow like a water fall.
and you, the other you, you can never imagine how sad i was.

i think i will forgive you.
but please pray that my heart will.

2009-06-18T01:02:00.000-07:00

you were everything to me.

but im slowly letting you go.

baby,

this love is difficult. but its real.

went to iswaran's farm-house today.

haha damn fun and alot of mosquitoes bite me.

and yanshan too.

ahaha.

we took loads of pictures.

but i don have any of them.

and our red class tee looks like its orange in those photos.

and we went to the jetty. haha. damn hot n smeelly.

at iswaran's house got cows n goats.

smelly.

we saw them shit n pee and breast fed.

and the kids were so small....!

pictures unavailable.

hahaha. too bad for you.

and there are two dogs. one called ah boy.

the other one is called...

JACKY!

HAHAHA.

and he told me jacky hates to bathe.

ahaha.

so not true.

i mean for jacky ong larh.

lol.

we were helping iswaran's family pack the yoghurt.

hahah. fun.

it was part of the cip project.

we had to do cip and for a total of 16hrs.

siao.

i think we prolly have to do it again.

someday..

2009-06-15T03:25:00.000-07:00

11 june

-zhongru's birthday
-3/1 class outing

wah.
class outing was a pathetic shit
17 ppl came.
trained to bedok den took bus to dono where before walking to ecp.
tempted to slap becca.
she told us to get down earlier den we should from the bus.
den walked freaking long way before reaching the underpass.

becca me xinying played with sand with sharen (our photographer) with us.
the rest went to cycle.

but the three of us left earlier and went bugis.
went to bugis street and shopped.
not bad not bad.
got something.
the topshop bag i was eyeing for was still there and i could have bought it.
but too bad i bought another bag recently so i let it go.
we went to iluma.
damn empty.
but our main purpose was to travel on the escalator.
very lame.
i know.
but very scary also!
the escalator is from 1st floor to 4th floor.
wah! so scared.
i afraid of heights lorr!
i was shivering and i kept thinking i will tumble down.

wenyi told me wad her friend said iluma stands for.
I LOVE UU MA.
lols.
damn cute.

actually i think that the class outing is a damn failure.
and i dont have the photos.
never mind.
just rmb ppl!
cip trip to iswaran's house must go!

;D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ZHONGRU!
OKAY FINE HAPPY BELATED.

2009-06-15T02:59:00.000-07:00

and i was crying at the staircase begging uu please dont go.

life is so damn unfair.
everything i thought i have.
all gone.
all vanished.
perished with my confidence.
im now an empty shell.
even if im left on the beach.
i doubt any hermit crab would want to fill me up.

i got tired of waiting
wondering if you were ever coming around
my faith for you was fading
i keep waiting for you but you never come

i feel like walking slowly towards the sea.
no matter how rough the deep blue sea is,
it is never like the storm in me.

im dying from a kind if illness called lifecycle
but im dying quickly.

my mommy said stay away from juliet.

i never wanted to let anyone down.
i never thought all of you were so unsupportive.
i never had known that the topshop dress was so expensive till i bought it.
i never knew how much you did care until you threw me away into a corner.
i never knew i was so despertate to find a protection.
i never saw some friends like you.
i never wanted to hurt you.
i never thought you were going to leave me.(no wait, i did)
i never thought you were going to change.(no wait, i did too)
i never expect anyone would even accept you.
i never knew i was born without a purpose.
i never understood the rules of living.
i just want to be happy. forever.

can someone help
will you try?
im just a nut without the pea.
i want to be a peanut.
its cute.
nut is too general.
i want to be unique.

i think its true that my life is still at its starting point.
and im too eager to want to reach the finishing line,
thinking that i will win a trophy at the end of it.

cause we were both young when i first saw you.
1315.070707.1416.070708.1517.070709.(coming soon)

theta.7

2009-06-05T07:01:00.000-07:00

do u even understand wad the fuck im looking for.

no
noone noes
cos i dono it too.

so don try to be a smart alec.

and do you mind to at least care?

2009-06-03T23:03:00.000-07:00

if only i was not that rush last time.
and take things slowly.
and things might turn out in a better way.
maybe?
i hope so.
not that i regret it now...
if only.
hmmmm.
i feel so troubled but the one causing this is me.
give up la xueyi.

2009-05-25T01:07:00.000-07:00

its a sucky day

i feel so damn tired can.

tired of school. tired of you people.

tired of listening to the same thing.

and tored of doing the same thing.

over and over and over and over again.

im so sick of my life.

2009-05-24T03:38:00.000-07:00

chocolate latte.

whoo hoo.

went to jerantut,malaysia to attend a wedding.

hee;D

booked a hotel but the rooms were too small for 10 ppl to sqeeze in.

so we booked a small chalet kind of house-room.

sorry thats how i would describe it.

okay.

the aircon in the room was damn disgusting.

it kept shooting styrofoam.

zzz. den we headed to the restaurant.

it was rather small and cramped.

you cant expect anything grand there larh.

there's this karaoke thingy

den all the drunk n old uncles went up to sing old songs.

and they sang damn loud.

i was dying.

the food served was not bad larh.

at least there is something i know how to eat.

hahaha.

and we had fish in the afternoon n for the dinner.

zzzz.

haha. i would try my best to open the fishes's mouth.

the teeth is so small.

n puny...

after dinner, we went to the pub.

my cousins n i wanted to go there to sing but we kept missing our turns because the person skipped us.

son of a bitch.

i waited till i fell asleep.

but in the end,we got to sing four songs.

so retarded.

wasted precious time.

plus plus the table next to mine got this prostitude slut.

and the uncle kept grabbing her huge,probably d-cup,boobs.

get a room!

oh and the room was like damn cold.

haha.

today i wnt to this old kampung.

den there were 4 puppies.

so cute.

i dont have the picture with me right now.

and there was this funny thing.

my grandma wanted to bring home a hen and a rooster so that they can breed and lay eggs.

so they caught the birds and tied their feets together so that both wouldnt run away.

unexpectedly, the chicken flew away...

we were like laughing our ass off...

so cute can the chicken.

and the eggs are damn small...

hee hee.

there's also 3 kitten.

1 on the rooftop,2 kept inside a box.

the mama was killed by the older dogs.

so sad.

haha.reminds me of mama looking for her cat.

and oh my god.

there are more rehearsals to come.

now that im back...

i cant wait to eat..

and i cant believe there's school tomoro.

god damn it.

2009-05-22T17:58:00.000-07:00

its a yes or no.
decide.

oh god.so screwed can.
i've nvr felt like this before.
but it doesnt matter now
cos no one else do.
wadeva.

too bad for wad i've done.
i don feel bad at all.

2009-05-20T02:11:00.000-07:00

past.

mememememememememoriesyouyouyouyouyouyouyou

we're like two seperate people now.

what seems to be unseperable.

i think that my mind is whirling too much

that it makes me confused.

whats the reason for being so far apart.

the way we talk is a lil weird now

its not like wad it used to be.

so near yet so far.

no jacky stop thinking its you.

2009-05-11T02:15:00.000-07:00

this is like lesbian but not.(?!?!)

woh!

went bowling today.
woh!

bowled 3 games.
total score only like 170++.
ploxxxxzxzxxxzxzx.
haix.
den neil like damn pro.
den we all like got strike once before.
haahahaa!
lols.
i jump like dere's no tomoro.
ahaha.
lol...

den scolded some cheeebye.
wa damn pisssed....
zxzxzxzxzzzzxx.
plox can.
act cute only.
haix.
dogggggg..
sec 1 dog..
my god.

ps:lucky you never come.
if not i will spend time laughing at uu.
zxzxzzxxzxz.
den cant concentrate at my game.
zxzzxxzxzx.

happy birthday yh!.
i noe whr to find you shit liao.

ok. bye pppl!

2009-05-04T23:22:00.001-07:00

mu ah ke si.
so bored.
so dead.
so hate exams.
bye

2009-05-01T21:46:00.000-07:00

(ex)president and i. am i supposed to feel honoured?

CSS DREAMAKERZ GOT GOLD WITH HONOURS

i understand my blog is slow in announcing information.

but i cant help it.

i dont blog often enough.

in my previous blog i said that we have to get gwh for mrs crothers and..

we really did it!

we all expected silver.

or the most, a gold.

but can uu believe it?

gold with honours?!?!

okay..

i dont really have the high mood already.

but im really proud.

parthiban(black spidey) n me.
old man n mama.

ps:if you're on facebook, check out the black spidey association. ;D

mrs crothers! hooray!

2009-05-01T21:29:00.000-07:00

when we didnt always know that it will last forever.

i miss him so much.

no more of me banging hard on his door and he refusing to open the door.

no more asking for CDs and having no(s) as the only answer.

no more making of silly faces together.

wad can i expect.

we are so far away.

but he will be back soon.
its not like he's gone forever.

great.

five more months.

and then we will fight again.

2009-04-30T20:41:00.000-07:00

its all hidden and you shall never ever know

yesterday was a piss-my-ass-off day.
the hcl exam was damn freaking tough.

i think im going to fail my paper 2.

don worry pals.

im mentally prepared to fail.

bused home with elfin and xinying.
we were laughing and talking and i was damn high.
i think maybe due to the stress rfrom the stupid paper.
then..
here comes a fat indian 50plus lady with her 20plus daughter.
the fat indian looked up and said "tsk, so noisy!~"
but because we refused to shutup(or maybe it was just me),
her daughter added,"give them two tight slaps and they will shut up"
so i stared at her and she stared back before rolling her eyes at me.
huh?
bitch pls!
2 indian fat black bitch taking up so much space on the bus.
there is no sign on the bus which says no talking or no talking very loudly.
too bad for uu that i am a very inconsiderate person.
don make me bring uu into the toilet and give you one tight slap.
ps:its an inside joke.

well.
den again. i should forgive them.
because soon i will forget about these fat ppl n move on until someone talks abt it again.
just like how i forget abt the lady who complains abt me eating cookie on the bus.
but xinying will remind me of her.
damn it.

alright i shall end my post and go shopping. ;D
pardon my url.
lim pok yee.
ps:another inside joke